stressed out..
the past few weeks have been very hectic for me... my cellphone has always been loaded with messages, even from people i don't know..this certainly was not because of the unlimited text craze... but because i was the woman of the hour...hahaha...it's a privilege and an honor to be trusted and to be known by many...but it's certainly not a good experience to be ABUSED...hehehe...but nonetheless, i love what i'm doing... uh, most of it... well what have i been doing???
uh, where will i start? i was the newly elected president for the next school year...but even though i have not taken oath yet, my duty has started...at first i enjoyed the fame and the trust... and i know it was the chance for me to make my ideas work...but suddenly, everything just poured on me..."mei, can u do this?", "mei, can u go here?", "mei, mei"...wak! and all they do was ask me to do these things... i never had the chance to decide... they overpowered me... and all they needed was my YES... i know i should be serving them... and i did all of that... i just hope, they don't use and abuse my patience and my indulgence...
then...before i should be president...i am this year's treasurer...well, there's no protest on collecting fees... the problem is... like for instance the printing of shirt... i collect, i designed (voluntarily), i made the deal, i delivered the shirts, and i got the shirts... hmmm??? what was the part of the treasurer there??? la la la la....
uh...next...because they trust me too much..well i really don't know if they trust me..or they just elected me as the director of our show because of my unwavering initiative and perseverance to make things done..because honestly...i don't feel like i am the director..because instead of me telling them what to do..it's the other way around...well, i'm not saying that their suggestions won't be appreciated...i just hope that my VOICE will be heard..ugh..i feel so stupid being the director...but there's someone directing me what to do...and they complain too much..and demand too much...that i really get irritated.. plus..they're not being serious with me...hay...
then...i'm always the leader...and should always be the one to decide...well not just in school..also with relationships i have..family, pangit, friends... hahaha...it's ironic right???i don't like someone telling me what to do...but neither do i want to be the one always deciding on what should be done?....am i clear or am i getting mentally-ill?
this morning, pangit and i had an argument, as we were texting each other...well i told him, that i hate people with no plans..well, something like that...and told him, that i have so many dreams..so many, that i cannot afford to stay put and be contented with what i have now...i'm not saying that i'm not contented with what GOD gave me...but i do believe, GOD has big plans for me..and i intend to achieve it...i don't want my future family to be what i am now... then, i realized that i'm becoming ambitious...is it a SIN?i just want to achieve my dreams..well, we argued, but we didn't say bad to one another..after that we settled in texting also...hehehe...
these past days have been really BUSY and STRESSFUL... i easily get irked... especially if someone asks me for the nth time the same thing i announced a couple of tyms...can't they get it?or are they just irritating me?huhuhu...and i really hate it when i get irritated...because i'm not used to shouting at people..i really lose my patience these days...and i'm really worried...huhuhu...
and one thing, i don't like EXCUSES...i don't like uncooperative people.. i don't like bragging people when they don't have something to brag... neither do i like those who don't believe on their own capacity... i don't like people depending on me... i don't like people who don't know what to dream...ugh!!!when i was not this stressful, i was patient...i try to understand everyone...i try to blend in.. i try not to argue...but then...i was not that stressful... so please let LIGHT shine upon thise people i work with...let they know what they are doing...and let I be so ever patient...
wak...i really think that i'm mentally-ill now...so till next time...CIAO!!!
uh, where will i start? i was the newly elected president for the next school year...but even though i have not taken oath yet, my duty has started...at first i enjoyed the fame and the trust... and i know it was the chance for me to make my ideas work...but suddenly, everything just poured on me..."mei, can u do this?", "mei, can u go here?", "mei, mei"...wak! and all they do was ask me to do these things... i never had the chance to decide... they overpowered me... and all they needed was my YES... i know i should be serving them... and i did all of that... i just hope, they don't use and abuse my patience and my indulgence...
then...before i should be president...i am this year's treasurer...well, there's no protest on collecting fees... the problem is... like for instance the printing of shirt... i collect, i designed (voluntarily), i made the deal, i delivered the shirts, and i got the shirts... hmmm??? what was the part of the treasurer there??? la la la la....
uh...next...because they trust me too much..well i really don't know if they trust me..or they just elected me as the director of our show because of my unwavering initiative and perseverance to make things done..because honestly...i don't feel like i am the director..because instead of me telling them what to do..it's the other way around...well, i'm not saying that their suggestions won't be appreciated...i just hope that my VOICE will be heard..ugh..i feel so stupid being the director...but there's someone directing me what to do...and they complain too much..and demand too much...that i really get irritated.. plus..they're not being serious with me...hay...
then...i'm always the leader...and should always be the one to decide...well not just in school..also with relationships i have..family, pangit, friends... hahaha...it's ironic right???i don't like someone telling me what to do...but neither do i want to be the one always deciding on what should be done?....am i clear or am i getting mentally-ill?
this morning, pangit and i had an argument, as we were texting each other...well i told him, that i hate people with no plans..well, something like that...and told him, that i have so many dreams..so many, that i cannot afford to stay put and be contented with what i have now...i'm not saying that i'm not contented with what GOD gave me...but i do believe, GOD has big plans for me..and i intend to achieve it...i don't want my future family to be what i am now... then, i realized that i'm becoming ambitious...is it a SIN?i just want to achieve my dreams..well, we argued, but we didn't say bad to one another..after that we settled in texting also...hehehe...
these past days have been really BUSY and STRESSFUL... i easily get irked... especially if someone asks me for the nth time the same thing i announced a couple of tyms...can't they get it?or are they just irritating me?huhuhu...and i really hate it when i get irritated...because i'm not used to shouting at people..i really lose my patience these days...and i'm really worried...huhuhu...
and one thing, i don't like EXCUSES...i don't like uncooperative people.. i don't like bragging people when they don't have something to brag... neither do i like those who don't believe on their own capacity... i don't like people depending on me... i don't like people who don't know what to dream...ugh!!!when i was not this stressful, i was patient...i try to understand everyone...i try to blend in.. i try not to argue...but then...i was not that stressful... so please let LIGHT shine upon thise people i work with...let they know what they are doing...and let I be so ever patient...
wak...i really think that i'm mentally-ill now...so till next time...CIAO!!!
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