emote mode 03/19/06
i've come to face my greatest weakness & that is leaving the people i love. for almost 22 years of my existence, i only had one thing on mind & that is to give them the best of everything until now, that's the first thing that i think of, but i guess i've come to realize that i should have something for myself, that i should love myself first before others. i've spent all my life trying trying to please everybody, spent each single day of my life serving them.
i don't regret the things that i have done for this family, cause they mean EVERYTHING to me. but when REALIZATION knocks, you begin to see the big picture, REALITY. you begin to see the TRUTH, that no matter how you please them, you can never please them, that no matter how hard you work for them, they will never appreciate. and the fact that it will all be about you & not them.
for many years i clinged to the fact that i love my family & i will do everything for them, that i sometimes, well most of the times, forget about myself. well, i am not a perfect person, nor am i a good daughter, but one thing is for sure, i tried to understand & believe them. many promises have been broken, ties have been destroyed, but i manage to stay calm & pursue what i dream for this family.
but maybe i am no longer a child, i am an adult trying to live on my own. it hurts to think that i must move on, on my own. but it hurts more to think that nothing's gonna happen in this world if i will not make a choice.
the LORD has taught me how to be strong after all these years of struggle & i thank Him so much that He has never ever left my side. He saw all the tears that i shed, that others have not witnessed. He saw all the dreams that i make & He knew al along that i'm going to achieve them. He knows my heart more than anyone else in the world, that's why i can't ever let go of Him. He knows me inside & out, i just hope that others knew me that well, too.
Everyday i am hurting, but i manage to smile & satisfy myself with God's overwhelming blessings. Everyday I worry but God tells me to stay calm, & when everything seems so unfair, he makes me see reality. For 22 years, people had come & go, struggles have weakend & strengthened me, but one thing never changed, & that is God's love for me.
I may go now & be far away, one thing will remain, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.
i don't regret the things that i have done for this family, cause they mean EVERYTHING to me. but when REALIZATION knocks, you begin to see the big picture, REALITY. you begin to see the TRUTH, that no matter how you please them, you can never please them, that no matter how hard you work for them, they will never appreciate. and the fact that it will all be about you & not them.
for many years i clinged to the fact that i love my family & i will do everything for them, that i sometimes, well most of the times, forget about myself. well, i am not a perfect person, nor am i a good daughter, but one thing is for sure, i tried to understand & believe them. many promises have been broken, ties have been destroyed, but i manage to stay calm & pursue what i dream for this family.
but maybe i am no longer a child, i am an adult trying to live on my own. it hurts to think that i must move on, on my own. but it hurts more to think that nothing's gonna happen in this world if i will not make a choice.
the LORD has taught me how to be strong after all these years of struggle & i thank Him so much that He has never ever left my side. He saw all the tears that i shed, that others have not witnessed. He saw all the dreams that i make & He knew al along that i'm going to achieve them. He knows my heart more than anyone else in the world, that's why i can't ever let go of Him. He knows me inside & out, i just hope that others knew me that well, too.
Everyday i am hurting, but i manage to smile & satisfy myself with God's overwhelming blessings. Everyday I worry but God tells me to stay calm, & when everything seems so unfair, he makes me see reality. For 22 years, people had come & go, struggles have weakend & strengthened me, but one thing never changed, & that is God's love for me.
I may go now & be far away, one thing will remain, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU.
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