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emote mode 03/19/06

i've come to face my greatest weakness & that is leaving the people i love. for almost 22 years of my existence, i only had one thing on mind & that is to give them the best of everything until now, that's the first thing that i think of, but i guess i've come to realize that i should have something for myself, that i should love myself first before others. i've spent all my life trying trying to please everybody, spent each single day of my life serving them. i don't regret the things that i have done for this family, cause they mean EVERYTHING to me. but when REALIZATION knocks, you begin to see the big picture, REALITY. you begin to see the TRUTH, that no matter how you please them, you can never please them, that no matter how hard you work for them, they will never appreciate. and the fact that it will all be about you & not them. for many years i clinged to the fact that i love my family & i will do everything for them, that i sometimes, well m

stressed out..

the past few weeks have been very hectic for me... my cellphone has always been loaded with messages, even from people i don't know..this certainly was not because of the unlimited text craze... but because i was the woman of the hour...hahaha...it's a privilege and an honor to be trusted and to be known by many...but it's certainly not a good experience to be ABUSED...hehehe...but nonetheless, i love what i'm doing... uh, most of it... well what have i been doing??? uh, where will i start? i was the newly elected president for the next school year...but even though i have not taken oath yet, my duty has started...at first i enjoyed the fame and the trust... and i know it was the chance for me to make my ideas work...but suddenly, everything just poured on me..."mei, can u do this?", "mei, can u go here?", "mei, mei"...wak! and all they do was ask me to do these things... i never had the chance to decide... they overpowered me... and all th

another day...

i've been really busy..physically and mentally speaking.. i don't know what to do first..but yeah i know i can do it... i thank GOD for giving me another day...another day of work..of love...of school...of meeting new friends...of blogging...of surfing the net...facing my pc monitor..of eating...of sleeping...of laughing...of crying...another day of living in this so-called world... sometimes i feel down...well most of us really feel down...but when i get to that point of falling...i think about other people...the wowowee tragedy victims, landslide victims, the street children, the disabled people...and for that i see that GOD has given me enough to live...i may not have the perfect family... not even close to perfection...i may not have a good house..may not have the chance to eat a meal or two...may have been working like a dog for the past couple of years...i still am lucky...oh no, not lucky...just blessed... maybe we people should see the little but beautifula nd splendid