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i'm confused...i'm lost..yesterday night...i told pangit about my feelings, about the emptiness i'm feeling since 2001..but it was not because of him...then i told him that he doesn't care...and i got mad at him because he doesn't know me that much..and that he always judges my family...i was hurt...he doesn't even wanna know my relationship with God..just because he's Catholic and I'm not...I hated him last night..I hated him so much..that I didn't make up with him..I don't want to..even if it means not having to celebrate our $th year anniversary...and even if it means not getting back together...i hate him for not making me feel special..for not understanding how i feel inside..i hate him for not accepting me as i am..and so is my family... i love pangit...but if this is all i got in four years...no foundation...i'm willing to let go...even if it hurts that much...i've been through many kinds of pain...and i don't know if it would

i thought i woke up earlier today...but it was just the presence of the dark clouds that made it looked 3am...and for the nth time..i was late...i really hope i can't be late anymore..but i can't wake up early..and i can't get a ride in the span of 5 minutes...ugh! yetserday night before goping to sleep...i texted the parker (smart users..thnx to the unlimited)....i told them m not feeling well..and that i have not been feeling well for the past 4 years...yes...4 years..m not sick or what...i just feel unwell..empty..and i know why...and maybe some of u know why...yes m happy...happiness is a choice..and i chose to be happy all these years..despite the hardships..the struggles..the pain...but happiness...is nothing compared to joy...having peace...having faith..that everything is okay...yes, a lot has changed...i have faith in the LORD..but...maybe...i lose sight of my own track..that i started doubting Him...well not really Him, but the world, myself...many things have rea

this pic was taken last dec.22 at our xmas party in the office...i'll share with u other pics tomorrow at the PIX GALORE section... meri krismas!!!

it's finally up.... visit the OFFICIAL SANDARA PARK WEBSITE... sandy's ktext about it: I hav a new website! Parang ang magiging oficial site ko! www.sandara-park.com created by parker arnie, parker elaine, parker jeany wid d help of d parkers' pres mei! Thank u so much! Marami ako cute na pics! Send ko sa inyo tom ha? Ito na kc 3rd ktext ko ngayon. Gusto ko 10ktxts a day hahaha. Shooting parin kami take care! :-)

bwahahaha...halu everyone!!!m back!!!after spending three days not online...now i'm back..hehehe..how's christmas???well, it was not the worst christmas..because i don't think there is such...but it was not the best either...uh, why?well i guess i had so many expectations..from my family..from pangit..that haven't really come to pass...christmas is not really about me..or the presents..it was about the family...JESUS..oh well, it was a nice night though..not perfect..but bein' with them on christmas is one thing i'll never barter anyone... we had movie marathon, we watched NEW YORK MINUTE, UPTOWN GIRLS, and a christmas cartoon produced by ADAM SANDLER...then i slept..cried...oh well that's life...i think i'll be adding a review portion here...for my movie reviews...songs reviews...and others...:)ok??? uh...25...went to andre's baptismal...i was one of the ninangs...hahaha...weee!!first time....hehehe..i am now a certified TITA...hehehe...after baptis

wak!it's sooo cold...you can really feel the holidays...hahaha...i really don't have something to write right now...well i do...but i have so many things to do...huhuhu.. so i guess i'll just have to say CIAO right now...till next time...

its the holidays!!!everybody is out shopping and buying gifts for their loved ones...:)i hope there's someone out there buying for me too...hehehe...anyways...i made my xmas shopping early..because i don't want to rush with everyone else...:) during the weekends, i slept..well...i can't really remember wat i've been doing..hahaha...all i can remember was that i spent most of my time with my pangit...hehehe..and know what?he gave me his anniversary present already..too advance...hehehe...11 days advance to be exact...he gave me a bracelet and earrings set...wak!!!i'm so touched...:)not because he gave me an expensive gift...but it's one of the few times he surprised me..:) late saturday night i watched the ABS-CBN Xmas Special...Hmpf!I hated it..i slept late just to catch a glimpse of sandy..but i hardly seen her...eventhough i hardly blinked...hmpf!Sometimes i think their being bias..and sometimes i doubt them..they couldn't blame me or us???they have been u

huhuhu...am i inlove?hahaha...ofcourse i'm inlove..but u know what i'm infatuated with this korean actor in the series 'ONLY YOU"...wak!the theme song is so nice..and the actor is so so so so POGI!...Jo Hyeon-jae /Cho Hyeon-jae....wak!!!can somebody send me his pics???or a site i can go to???huhuhu....why on earth is he in Korea and i'm here?hehe...ooops...behave...hehehe... by the way...i was not able to blog yesterday because i was absent...i'm not feeling well..yesterday...i hosted our quiz shoe..and i think it turned out well..hmmm...then i went to the mall..to buy some additional gifts..and because i was wearing heels..i went home with a painful feet...huhuhu... well...now i'm feeling just fine...pangit and i had a misunderstanding last last night...so he didn't show up last night...hmpf!hehehe...but i'm ok..i don't miss him that much bcoz of Hyeon-jae..also known as TJ...hahaha..JOKE!!!hmmm...

hahaha...alas i finally added my Pix Galore page...hehehe.. well today is a fine day..eventhough i found it hard to wake up sooooo early for the nth time...i hate waking up this early...because i'm a night person...but this is a good day..know why???well, i dunno...i just feel it's a good day..maybe because it's payday...hahaha!nah!i just hope i have enough energy til afternoon... btw i watched rockstar inxs last night, the episode when there were still 6 of them...i find it hard to believe that JD became the grand winner of the show...he's so...duh!nevermind..maybe i was just judging him..but anyway i think mig ayesa (did i spell it right?) really rocks!!!haha!am i being bias?well, he's one of the few half Filipinos that i'm proud of...and he really rocks!!!i mean it!!!! so got to go now..CIAO!got to work...and enjoy this happy day!!!:)

maayong adlaw sa tanan!magandang araw sa lahat!good day everyone!hehehe...i'm in a good mood today coz pangit went to the house last night..hehehe..i'm really happy when i'm with him..though i admit it was not a perfect relationship..but i'm happy it's not..coz if it was perfect...hehehe..i doubt we will last 4 years..hehehe... oh well, i'm really sleepy..i wanna go to sleep...but i don't have any choice..do i?i didn't attend my caed 500 class yesterday for the nth time...coz i was really tired, i even fell asleep on the way home...huhuhu..when i got home...i ate cake and chicharon..hahaha..then i slept..i woke up at around 9pm..just in time for "Only You"..hehehe...TJ (i don't know his real name)..is really angelic..hay...hehehe... then i waited for PBB Revealed...hay I don't understand why some Filipinos are so narrow-minded like Mr. Morato...I'm sorry to say this Chairman..but I don't think you see what's going on around

life will always have its ups and downs..there are times that life is full of laughter and often times..it is full of tears...but nonetheless, life is a blessing, a purpose...we may not realize our purposes this time, but there will come a time that we'll find our purpose...remember that life is not about being happy and being sad..or being up or down..life is all about LOVE, GOD, YOU and the PEOPLE around you... ever wonder why LIFE is called LIFE?ponder for a moment and look around..you may see the answer right infront of your monitor... CIAO friends..time to go to school...another day..to my dear friend trini, don't worry..GOD has HIS own reasons..TRUST Him..Ok???Mwah!

hahaha...finally i have my own template...want to have one of this???or want me to make u one???just leave a message and i'll try to make u a template..ur very own..hehehe... i'll be trying to make some more template that you can use...for now it's gonna be really free...but maybe if i do good on it..i will be asking for a little something from u...would that be fair? hehehe...wak!!!so read on guys...and surf...maybe you'll stumble on something you can grab...hehehe..

wanna cry..wanna get mad!!!huhuhu...i wanna hate them..wak!well..we got a ZERO for a talk show..because it was not recorded...waaah!!!so now we'll have to prfect our quiz show...but how can we perfect it...when they are not present for the rehearsal..when some are late...why can't people value time..and value others...it's as if..they own time.. waaaaaah!i don't wanna get mad..i don't wanna say things that would hurt them or me..but i hope they do act professional..well, i just hope they mind taking up the subject again..and not take the higher subjects next sem..grrr...

good day everyone!it's another day...wak...hmmm...yesterday after attending the meeting of my lil sis...we went straight home...and i slept...i woke up at around 7 pm...then i went to bed at 11:30..but slept at 12am..huhuhu..i miz my pangit...well i wanna share some of our pics..uhm..but i'll still edit them..so i guess you'll have to wait for that...hehehe... well i've decided that i will go for the pink and black template...because the sepia may look sooo boring..and i don't want you to be bored..so i'll make a wild temp just for you..hehehe..:) ok..got to go now.time to work...i'll just drop by again later...:)

hehehe...the past week has been a total disaster...well, for some of u...not...but for me..it was..because it was like i was finding myself...:(well...i'm quite better now...last friday...pangit and i had an argument...well sort of..i cried...and then at production...i forgot to record our production..good thing that the lab incharge let us reproduce our talk show..thank GOD..it has been a stressful friday...but afterwards..i went to jobee...then ma and i...got the chance to grab a snack at merco..it was unusual, because we didn't really talk..there were awkward moments..but then everything went smooth... pangit never texted later that day until saturday..he called..asked how i am..listened to my voice..it was quite obvious that he missed me...hehehe..well..i went home around 4 pm..hmmm..went to sleep...and woke up at 8pm..i was pretty excited for the PBB big night..well who was not..though i had a premonition that nene wqs going to be the big winner...i was still hoping that c

hehehe..this is just one of the nonsense posts you'd see here..well actually nonsense for u but all sense for me..hehehe...above is one of the wallpapers i made..and that features me and my pangit...we'll be celebrating our 4th year anni this dec28..and i'm really excited and happy..i thank GOD that through all these pains and struggle..I have my Pangit to hug and hold..and to share each moment with...well not really each moment..specially now that he's really busy..me too..three and four..hehehe..

Oh life...i dunno what's happening with me...i'm hopeless...waaaaaah!well, okay last night I was fine because I had dinner at pangit's haus..but then when I got home..everything was not right..I was not talking with my ma..and vice versa..well i don't want to engage in a conversation with any of the family member..because it would totally be useless..i slept at around 10pm..when i woke up today, pas asked why my ma and i weren't talking...hmmm..they are not "manhid" after all...wel now i'm the one who's acting numb...because i'm really sick and tired of being the "GOOD" one..can't i be mean???well...i'm not that mean when i'm mean... now when i came 2 office this day..i had a "sort of an argument" with my offcm8..well, nvermind...eventhough I was getting cold and I wanted to shout out loud...but I remained cool..it's hard to keep your patience u know..waaaaaah!!! and now..i'm ready to face another cau

Thank God! I have a new blog.... but I don't know how long I can keep this... I had a few blogs back then but all I updated was the Parkers Blog hehehe! Well anyways, how should I start? Why am I making this blog?Uh, because I'm not fine. And I wanna pour out my feelings....I'm really depressed...I just hope I could cry, shout, take a rest, be free! Oh well, this is life...